Me being - you tell me.

thing is i see myself going on day in day out with a pattern.
and its starting to get so dumb and boring.

i dont get it. dont think i ever will.
i have so much time here, but there isnt anyone i could spend it with.

why's it always has to be about money?
so loserish. is money the greatest thing to you?
any of you?

and so what if i feel like crap?
does it matter? will it help if i cried out loud?
i dont think so.
thus, i'll just wear a smile.
and perhaps it will stay that way if i wear it long enough.

sometimes i blame Him. sometimes i question Him. sometimes i resent Him.
but who am i to do that?
dumb Adam and Eve. stupid people who did stupid things.

and now all of us are mere sinners.
so stupid of human beings for loving money.
stupid adults.
maybe money is important. yes?
but hey, look at who's the provider first yea?

will i ever have a future?
haha. it was such a blow i'd say.
what happened?
why did it happen?

oh crap. whatever.
why am i even typing all this down.

from now on, i'd just wear that smile.
so random. haha.
whatever...