Me being - caught between the Montagues and Capulets

The Montagues and Capulets.

The story of Romeo and Juliet. A story where 2 crazily in love people have to go seperate ways because of family problems which was long forgotten.



honestly, i find the story bullshit.

i just hate it. why must the children suffer because of stupid family fueds?

why must it end up being the two madly in love people dying because they cant be together due to family objection?



i dont understand it. and i hate it.

stupid how things go doesnt it?



think about it.



its so crazy. try relating it to ur life people.

if your parents, or ur other half's parents were like the Montagues or Capulets what will you do?

haha. what if the Montagues and Capulets are friends? but the Caps dont want their kid to marry to the Monts? and threatens to severe family ties?
what if you're the Montague kid? what would you do?
what if you were the Capulet kid? what would you do?

sometimes it just makes me sick that parents think of their pride more than their kid.
sometimes because they do not like the other party's family.
isnt it like this in Romeo and Juliet?

but people, what would you do? if you were either Romeo or Juliet?
would you have died for the other party?

kinda stupid right?
this kind of love.
i love you so much that i will die for you.
have you ever wondered if its worth it?
whole load of bullshit.

Me being - guy who do not know himself.

well, it has been a very rough patch for me.
it has been going on for the longest time. i've just been very messed up as a person.
very messed up emotionally also.

and the past few days hasnt helped at all. had a bit of a cold war and misunderstanding between me and my mum.
but things been settled now.
sometimes i just dont understand myself anymore.
maybe we weren't made to do that?

basically i feel that a person is created to honor their parents, their creator.
isnt that true?
i mean, without them where do we get our life?
right?

yea, well for the time being its just finding me myself again.
haha, when i read back on what i've blogged, it seems so emo so depressing.
well. time to add in the sunshine. :)

let go and let God.
this is what i've learnt.

Me being - a man full of weaknesses.

guess i've never been a talker.
just thinking and making up things up in my head.

i dont know why, but i find it rather hard to express myself. and i end up expressing them through letters and smses.

i find myself pathetic.
and full of irony.

and at most parts, ending up hurting those that i cared for.

i feel so horrible. when things seem to be turning for the better, i'd just say and do the wrong things and everything just turned for the worst.

the worse part was how could i hurt her when she's already have enough problem?
in the end, i'm a hindrance.
and looking back, it has always been this way.

dennis = a hindrance.

i'm so sorry. yet no matter how much i apologise, it'll never help.
i wanted to be friends with common topics again. yet, after what i've done, it seemed like it wont happen awhile again.

hey there,
i know that u seldom read my blog. in fact u've only read it once.
but i just want u to know how sorry i am. the things u said did not register inside which was why i did what i did. now everythings clear.
and i just wanna tell u i am sorry.

i dont know if it will ever happen again. but if it does. i dont want it to happen to u again.
i feel that i am dangerous emotionally.
which was why i wanted to run away.
i really dont wanna hurt u again.
sorry.

den

Me being - you tell me.

thing is i see myself going on day in day out with a pattern.
and its starting to get so dumb and boring.

i dont get it. dont think i ever will.
i have so much time here, but there isnt anyone i could spend it with.

why's it always has to be about money?
so loserish. is money the greatest thing to you?
any of you?

and so what if i feel like crap?
does it matter? will it help if i cried out loud?
i dont think so.
thus, i'll just wear a smile.
and perhaps it will stay that way if i wear it long enough.

sometimes i blame Him. sometimes i question Him. sometimes i resent Him.
but who am i to do that?
dumb Adam and Eve. stupid people who did stupid things.

and now all of us are mere sinners.
so stupid of human beings for loving money.
stupid adults.
maybe money is important. yes?
but hey, look at who's the provider first yea?

will i ever have a future?
haha. it was such a blow i'd say.
what happened?
why did it happen?

oh crap. whatever.
why am i even typing all this down.

from now on, i'd just wear that smile.
so random. haha.
whatever...

Me being - exhausted.

i dunno why.
recently i've been feeling very exhausted. towards the end of the day i'll start feeling light headed.
not sure if its the lack of sleep. or whatever.
i guess its starting to take a toll whatever i'm not doing correctly.

just see how its goes la.
anyways my life, i see it going back in pieces again.
just pray that it doesnt fall apart.

and i thank God for helping me, protecting me and covering me when i called for Him.
yea.
hopefully no more crazy roller-coasting emotional blogs for sometime.
so tired of it.
:)