Me being - lost

Is love about money?
What's love to you people?

Love, is a beginning. knowing that you are not alone every morning when you wake up.
someone or something you look forward to.

Love, is a present. knowing all the sweetness that you get to hold on to.

Love, is a future. knowing that there's someone who will be there to grow old with you. to be there to share past memories.

Love, is loving you. it has not been easy all this time. but i'd still want to hold on.
I still love you. I still miss you badly at times.
what if tomorrow never comes?
will you know how much i love you?
will you know how much i want to hold you in my arms?

i'm starting to lose the feeling of hugging you.
starting to miss how it feels like to be kissed by you.
i just can't imagine myself holding someone else.
dont want to be kissing someone else.

missing those days when we made breakfast for each other.

kicking myself so bad to be looked down on. for not being able to give you a future.
i'm working at it though.
just wished that you were here by my side while i'm at it. dont really want to face it alone.

if i asked you, would you hold me in your arms?
cos i'm scared. i'm really scared of facing the world without you here by my side.
you just feel so distant from me. so far that i cant even catch a glimpse of your shadow.

i still dream of walking with you hand in hand along the beach.
with the cool sea breeze blowing against our faces.
throwing pebbles into the sea just to see the ripples dance in the water.
burying each other under the sand for fun.

i may not be the smartest, the most talented or the most good looking.
but will u still choose me instead?
or am i holding on to something that's already gone?